Saturday, April 9, 2011


I have to admit it.

I am jealous.

Not just a little jealous. I'm talking about unbearable jealousy.

I have followed so many people's adoption journeys online. There is not one person who started this process the same time as me that hasn't had their kids home for months now. Months.

I'm glad their kids don't have to wait. I'm glad they have families. I'm glad they are finally home.

But what about my kids? They have lived in the orphanage for 5 years now. Almost a year and a half of that time I have been fighting to get them home.

I am tired. I ache for my children. I'm sick of being happy for everybody else. I want to bring my children home.
So there you have it. Pure, undiluted jealousy.


  1. THANK YOU!!! Thank you for your candor & honesty. My husband & I have been on our adoption journey for over a year and are still nowhere near bringing our children home. I am relieved to know that I'm not alone in my battle with envy over the joy other families have been experiencing that began the journey at the same time as us. Thanks again. God bless your journey to your children!

  2. I am so sorry and completely understand how you feel. There were times I felt that way watching others bring their kids home. As you know we have had our kids home almost 2 weeks now. What's going on with your case? What is the status?

  3. Thanks guys. We are still waiting on their father's death certificate so we can file the I600. We applied for it back in December.

    So, how are things going with Abi & Joseph home? I bet it is so fun!

  4. It is nice to know that someone else understands. I am so happy to see families come home, but I want it to be my turn. We have had so many things go wrond while others seem to breeze through. I too understand! I am so tired of hurting. Just hang on. In the end this is all going to be worth it.

  5. I am so sorry. I (sort of) understand how you feel. Our adoption was put on hold almost as soon as we started. So, no referral at the time. I can.not.imagine. You are a strong mama.

  6. Can I say thank you for making me feel like not the only one! I feel the same way...happy for them but sad for our kids. We've been working since July just to get our homestudy approved. Haven't even started the hard stuff yet. I've heard the secret to contentment is never to compare, compete, or complain. I'll let you know when I get there. ;)

  7. I so appreciate your honesty. I get so tired of the fairytale blogs.

    :) :) :)